Farewell, it was damn good to meetcha:
Every good thing must come to an end. No, not my blog you morons. bROKEN Release, the band that I often spoke about, has finally broken up. Shannon, the singer, wasn't into the music anymore. It's sad, I really like their music. If I had a 40 right now, I'd tip it for the homeys that aren't here. What ever that means.
Has anyone ever seen the movie Cooley High. A movie from the 70s about Chicago youths living in the Ghetto. It's a cool movie that brings you back to a time that I will never know. Anyway, in the movie after one of the main characters die from a gang beating, all the homeys tip their drinks for the homey that isn't there. It's funny how early 90's rap music brought such actions like this back into main stream. You know, tipping 40s, playing dominos, saying expressions like, "In order to make this thing work we got to get rid of all the pimps, pushers and prostitues, and then start over clean." –The Mack.
Let me rephrase that last paragraph. It was the early 90's that expressions like the above were introduced into white communities due to rap music and movies from Dr. Dre, Snoop Dog, Ice Cube and I believe John Singleton? (Sorry if I screwed up that directors name) From this point, bands like Limp Biskit were inspired to combine metal and rap for a more conducive blend of rap and metal suitable for mass consumption. Now, there's Linkin Park and Sum 41—two bands all about playing heavy and rapping their lyrics. I have no idea where this blog is goin. I guess I'm just rambling. But the point that I am trying to make is bROKEN Release is no more and I'm still sitting here doing nothing constructive. And for those friends of mine who have started to read my blogs, my bowel movements are doing just fine.

Finished "My World: ramblings by an aging gutter punk" by Jeff Ott.
Opinion: very good thoughts. Interesting perspective by a man whose been through a lot of shit. Although, I do not agree with all of his reasonings or solutions, he is pretty dead-on with the problems of the world today. I've never been homeless. I've never been an addict. I've never loss a close friend to drub abuse. I've never been sexually abused. I read this book from a completely different perspective. Anyone who has suffered from any of these scenarios should read this book. Especially the youths of today. It's written from a perspective of, "I know drugs are bad, because I've been there. But if you are going to do drugs, here's what you should and shouldn't do. If you want to stop doing drugs like I did, here's what you should and shouldn't do. Apply the same method of thinking for sexual abuse (victim and criminal perspectives), alcohol abuse, etc...
He also touches subjects about race, religion, and homosexuality. All topics that are rarely spoken of or taught in school. Subjects that should be mentioned in todays society becasue it's everywhere.
Anyway, if you want a book that teaches you a little something that schools, government or your innocent way of life doesn't teach you, then read this book. It will definately give you a different perspective on people you would normally look the other way at.

I NEED CHANGE.
Not for a dollor.
Not my underwear.
In my life!
My mind is like a shadow in the dark.
It's not really there.
Was it ever?
I think I have A.D.D.
I think I have issues.
Need time off work.
Need to evaluate my situation.
I'm closing on the condo next friday. This should be a good change. I hope.

Another stepping stone is nearing. I hate life decisions. I hate choosing. I hate having to choose between two things I don't want to choose from. Equality. I wish things were equal. Who knows, this may not even be a big deal. Or it may be the biggest problem ever. I'm just rambling.
The weekend was good. Easter. Eggs. Hunt. Yay family. I love my neice and nephew. There so fun. To be a kid again. Your hardest decisions are what to watch on saturday mornings. Life was easy then. I'm getting old. 26. Blah.
Hard to think today. Very tired. Watched the worst movie ever last night. I won't even say the name because I am embarresed for being associated with it.
My friends and I do a science-fiction-mystery theater type thing on Sunday nights. Very fun. Very funny. Yesterday's selection was horrible. HORRIBLE. I was embarresed for the actors. That's pretty bad.
Need to work now. New band of choice right now is Ned's Atomic Dustbin. Very good stuff. Jay suggested it to me last week and I just got around to it this weekend. I like it alot. Oh well, adios everybody.

Reading "My World".
Written by the singer from the band "Fifteen".
Wow, he lived an interesting life.
Rough. Hard.
It's a book of all his experiences in life as a runaway, crack addict, lead singer, punk. His mother was raped at a young age. Then he was adopted and abused by his foster parents. Hard life. Scary. I'm impressed he survived. I give him my respects.
My life is a walk in the park. I feel ill at my constant remorse of being me, then read about lives like this and become even more disgusted at my self. I've got it easy.
I've got it easy.

My life is so bland right now.
Tasteless.
New York was fun this time.
Saw Mr. Peterman from Seinfeld at 60 Thompson. He's just like everyone else.
Job is killing me. Buying condo now. Nervous and excited at the same time. Like a run away roller coaster.
Watched Alphaville over the weekend. "Sometimes reality is too complex for oral communication."
i.e.: love is too complex for oral communication.
This is true.
Alphaville. Jean Luc Godar. A beautiful film.
Read No Exit by Jean Paul Sartre. Another masterpiece.
Also read The Most Dangerous Game. I expected more. But you can't have everything.
Got to work now. Hope to see you all soon.
Ciao

Just sitting at home setting my computer up. Finally, I'm able to get on the web from home. Oh well, enough of this boring ass blog. I got shit to do.

I give up. This fucking computer hates me. I saw it laughing at me the other day when I was coming around the corner. Blast this bastard of a computer. Has anyone ever seen the movie Alphaville. An early Jean-Luc Godar flic. Awesome! It's about computers running an entire city keeping all it's citizens captive. I love French Noir!